Stopped relying on God
Updated: Jun 21, 2022
Written by one of the residents.
The past month was rough. I stopped relying on God, stopped seeking him earnestly, and instead tried to handle things in my own strength and understanding.
Foolishness.
I was trying to chase money, material gain, and some semblance of what this world calls status. Got a job making decent money, in a job I know wasn't a right fit for me. But aye, that money was calling..I was coming home drained, not wanting to wake up in the morning, and really fighting against the growth I've gained in the past 7 months. Thought quite a few times about just throwing in the towel and going to get high.
I then lost that job, and was met with more stress, more of a need for "money", and was watching everyone else around me succeeding triumphantly. Why couldn't I?
Because I took my eyes off of what mattered. I noticed this, realigned my sight to the heavens, and things started falling back into place. Internally and externally.
I took a paycut accepting this detailing job, but listen to this..I go to work grateful, I wake up excited, I work hard throughout my shift, and I'm no longer looking at what is happening to those around me saying "man they are blessed"..but am now able to look at all of us and say "man WE are blessed".
What happened? I noticed how poor and incorrect my perspective was, and by the grace of God was given strength to change it.
That's all. I changed my perspective. Don't look at those around you. Look at yourself. Then look up. It's not about getting what you want..it's about wanting what you have and being grateful for it.
If you wake up dreading the day, ask yourself why, then ask what you can do to change it.
Philippians 2:12-13 "work out your salvation with fear and trembling;13 for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure." This verse shows that we have responsibilities work out salvation or how we are to live. We do not do this alone. God is at work, too, to bring change. When I say, "I can do this on my own," or "I don't need you." I am speaking from a self-righteous attitude.